Since the moment I embarked on this spiritual journey, my faith in my healing has been greater than my fear of death. This was not always the case for my mom and many other people that have heard my story. But after watching my mom laugh uncontrollably as the Energy worked through her, moving and contorting her body in ways she never knew possible, I saw that she finally felt the power of this medicine that is healing me. It is this energy medicine that has cemented me to my faith in the deep healing that can happen outside the confines of conventional western medicine. I now see that this faith has been instilled in my mom, the person I most needed to believe in what I am doing. Without realizing it, I needed her blessing to complete the last leg of my healing, and with that I was able to release the guilt I have felt for following my own beliefs and rejecting those of a person I love so deeply. After she witnessed me living so freely and blissfully, laughing more than I ever have and looking happier and healthier than ever before, I knew she understood why my soul had lead me to this practice. What’s more, she now understands that with this medicine, I am healing myself.
As I reflect back to over a year ago, when my battle to heal myself first began, I felt like I was crawling through a dark cave, unable to see where I was going and struggling to find an out. I knew my mom wanted to help me, but we couldn’t see each other in the darkness and I felt lost and separated from her. What I didn’t see was that this cave is lined with precious sparkling gemstones to remind me of the beauty of this journey. And now that I have come to an opening, the light has seeped in, illuminating my path to freedom and engulfing me in the luminous splendor of the miraculous crystals that have been there all along. In this light I also see that my mom is right next to me fighting, and has been there the whole time.
